.:The Rant of the Century:.
Lying on my bed doing absolute nothing. It's been a hobby. A part from doing my assignment, studying, cleaning my house, cooking and doing grocery there is nothing else I can do here. There is nothing to download and I can't play DOTA because the bloody Mirc won't bloody connect. Heck!! What is going on?? I thought life here would be more interesting. Yes I learn a lot to be independent but there is something that is dearly missing here. FRIENDS. I don't think I have a friend here. A friend that is a male, a friend that can share some guys problems with. I don't mean I am horny or desperate for a guy. I am still very straight. I want someone that can click with me well and not annoy me. I have heck of guy acquaintances that piss the hell of out me. I know I am being fussy and all, too bad it just how I function as a human. What Kathleen said was quite true. Friends here are not as true and real as the ones back home. Felt like I was back in my high school days where I do most of the stuff alone.Watching a movie here is way too expensive so there are not movies day out. The peeps at Berwick it just so far from my place. Plus, that are so into themselves and they are all gals. I never could understand their conversations. All girls talk. Man this just so frustrating. There are one or two people here that I can talk to and hang out. I don't know why I am so emotionally caught by this issue. I mean it is something that I have to get a move along. Nothing seems to be helping at all. My housemates are nice people but they have each other and I don't want to be in the way (which already I am).Sigh!! Again did I make the right choice coming here? Looking back that the past 2 months. There were plenty of ups and downs. It fluctuates less here as life is much simpler here. I really am praying very hard for a group of friends that I can hang on with. A group of people I can trust and cherish. All in all I havent been very friendly here or maybe I have changed.
I still have many more months here. I hope things will get better. I know very well that I have been given a blessing and not a curse. Indeed that things should have settled down by now. I hope that it will not get worst next year as most of the people that I know are going back as their university years are over. Perhaps, like what Fiona said "Adrian, you are thinking too much!! Snap out of it or it will kill you!!!" I wish I can stop thinking for a moment. So much for an April fool joke, didn't really cheer me up.It made me worst (maybe it is also payback time i trick too many people). I wonder where did that cheerful, silly and lame Adrian went to. He is never to be found.On top of that, people are ranting to me about how moody they are and this and that, without realizing there people who are worst off. I am serious like what happened to a friend. Instead of being comforted I am being bombarded by people telling about their problem which adds to my emotional state. I don't blame them for being moody as a lot of people went through what I am going through or also going through. I am asking for a time off. I can't possibly help another person who has the similar problems with me.
Worst things can get worst!! Discrimination. Being the minority sucks. So what if I am yellow I am the same as the whites. Human in every way. I just can't see why they see me as weird. Dude!! I make love through sexual intercourse just like you white people. I don't do "Belahan- Dedua". On top of that, the weather here isn't helping at all. On one end it can freeze your balls, the other end it will disintegrate the first layer of your skin. Why have 4 seasons in a year when you can have it all in a day!!!!!!
3 Comments:
You are doing great here Pui Khong...don't let little things pull you down...You promised me everything would be great here so you must keep your promise made back in Msia...Remember that you will always have a friend in me. Cheers (^(00)^)
Get a Hobby Adrian. Either than that, get involved in activities like church.
In all seriousness, it's going to be a very lonely time in Monash. My brother who studied there simply concurs 100% to that statement. Get involved in maybe Youth Church Campus.
Either than that, most people over there would just start playing World Of Warcraft. I can attest that some 80% of my friends in Australia end up playing WoW one way or another to pass the time.
Australia can be a great experience, or a boring one unless you get to fit it one way or another. Imo, join activities.
Like for me, when I go to Melbourne, I'll be joining my BJJ or my wrestling classes. :D
-John Wee-
Since you want me to comment...
Actually I prefer to tag on ppl's msg board, dun know why...
I haven't been to aus nor study overseas before, so I can't say much... Maybe somewhere down the road when it's my turn to be in aus I'll encounter the same prob like you... Dunno...
Always keep in touch with us yeah?? I hope that helps a bit..
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