Nights of Fire, was totally awesome. 8 very powerful nights of God's visitation.God's fire really rain down in church and it was filled with the Holy Spirit.People who was wheeled in wheelchairs, walked out of church without the need of being wheeled in a wheelchair. Testimonies after testimonies that testify of His grace and mercy.People were healed and the level of faith has up a whole new level.People are so hungry that every night was jammed packed with people.
His timing is perfect and God prepared me for the worst news.Ashley is with someone.God has revealed it to me the third night of the nights of fire.I just did not believe in the revelation. However, God has moved me to another new level of intimacy with Him. I was filled with bitterness and rage when she confessed to me.God intervened and reminded me of the Serenity Prayer.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time, Enjoying one moment at a time, Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace, Taking, as God does, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it, Trusting that God will make all thing right if I surrender to his will, That I may be reasonably content in this life and supremely happy with Him in the next."
I rather surrender and prefer His will in my life.I have been wrestling with God.Its time to stop and fully live my life in faith.Is been a week, I have never felt so happy, joyful and peaceful.Everything around me just swings 180 degrees. I feel no shame, no guilt, no pain and no bitterness.It all happened for His glory.I just hunger more and more for His word in my life and to build my faith to a whole another new level.
I just want to take this time to thank these persons who have been there to talk, listen and mentor me in my toughest season in my life :
Mum, Dad, Sis, Syed Ibrahimsha,Bernard Lim,Carol Chee, Christine Hartono,Michelle Lim, Sarah Lim, Timmy Lai, Sern Liang, We-Ki, Eu gene, Kenneth Chan, Li Wun , Yu Yee , Andrea Chong and Grace Chong
Now I am huge fan of Jason Mraz. His new album launch not too ago titled " We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things".I would say the album is a bit out of his ordinary style.Still, he always have fresh new sound. Here is a song from him in his latest album - Lucky, a duet with Colbie Caillat.
I feel like an old man.I am so immobile.Sitting down or going to bed is a pain.Both my knees, elbow, hips are bruised. I mean bruised. My left hip are swollen and bruised . My right butt cheek hurts.I cant make sudden movement while I walk or it is going to hurt.Seriously I don't think I should have signed up for the Corbis Futsal Inter Ad Agency Futsal Tournament.Man those guys are like rugby players.Its just Futsal.I just played 3 rounds and I am dead. Like I was riding a bike and a truck ran over me. Gosh! I got no idea how and I going to work tomorrow.Let alone today, I just wanted to kneel down and pray i can't even do so.I am so not going to play any futsal like ever again.
It going to be an exciting week ahead. Firstly, it would be Nights of Fire. No its not a movie. It's time where the church is called to be refreshed and seek a fresh anointing for every member of the church.I want to be a part of this revival that God wants to pour out, I want not just another event with God.I want to fellowship with Him and be in the process.The challenging part would getting there on time.Its starts at 8.00 pm and it will run every night for the next whole week.I really pray that I am able to get off work early to go for the nightly service.Secondly, I will be attending the long overdue basic doctrine classes that I always wanted to go. Its going to be a great 2 weeks ahead, in spite of everything that has happened. God is good and He has been faithful.
Lastly, Dad thank for the last 23 years.I know it was not a good start for us, but still it is never too late. The first shopping experience with just you and me was awesome.
I cant stand to fly Im not that naive Im just out to find The better part of me
Im more than a bird...Im more than a plane More than some pretty face beside a train Its not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry Fall upon my knees Find a way to lie About a home Ill never see
It may sound absurd...but dont be naive Even heroes have the right to bleed I may be disturbed...but wont you concede Even heroes have the right to dream Its not easy to be me
Up, up and away...away from me Its all right...you can all sleep sound tonight Im not crazy...or anything...
I cant stand to fly Im not that naive Men werent meant to ride With clouds between their knees
Im only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me Inside of me Inside me Yeah, inside me Inside of me
Im only a man In a funny red sheet Im only a man Looking for a dream
Im only a man In a funny red sheet And its not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...
Its not easy to be me
I am not a perfect person, but I am willing to change...