.:Brighter Days:.
Things are brighter the past two days. I couldn't explain how positive I feel now. Still recovering but I know that I am much better off now. The past one week and a half was literally hell for me. On Sunday night after dinner I was still ranting to Sarah. Through her words and phrases I know she was pretty annoyed at me because I just can't stop ranting about the whole issue. However, the ever patient Sarah did not shoot me sky high. Rather she left me some thing to think of.
Sarah: Remember, you were all depressed when you found out that you application for transfer was rejected.
Me: I could not have forgotten about that, it is still fresh in my mind.
Sarah: Still, why you are so sad about when you got the transfer? You should be more than grateful that you are here!
I was speechless. I kept silent. It hit me right in the face. I never thought of things this way. Even before I was here, Sarah was telling me that she is afraid that she is not able to adapt to life here. I told her things would be alright it is not as bad as she thinks it would be. I should have told that to myself first. Before I slept on Sunday night, I prayed. All in all I was asking for strength. I was weary in many ways. On way or another I was reminded by this verse.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (New International Version)
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
Tears were just streaming. I was just not reminded of this verse but also Easter. He took the nails and He went to the cross. I realised that I allow myself to drown in the negative environment. Never was grateful that I have actually good friends around me. Some how I choose to believe in something else. A part from that, I have been thinking for too much. Hence the thoughts negativity. All because of this I felt so insecure and alone. I know that God have given more that what I actually need. His is grace is overflowing. It me that choose not the see it the way God want me to see. I was blinded. I should be happy and grateful being here. I have made it this far and I don’t think I am in any state ready to give up. All in all I am better off now. Thanks to The Father above me and my friends near and far. You all have been a great blessing to me. Sorry that I was such an idiot to rant so much where there is nothing to rant about.
Easter is a around to corner. To my brothers and sister in Christ, let's not forget what He has done for us. Be reminded of his Love, Grace and Mercy. To all Monash people have a great Easter break.To the rest of you have a great week ahead. Cheers.
4 Comments:
Happy to hear that you're feeling better now...
It's true that sometimes we take things for granted... When things doesn't really go as we expected it, we forget to be grateful for the good things in life and tend to be very occupied by the negative situation...
Like you said, Easter is one good reminder for all of us...
God bless ^_^
I happy eaaster weekend to you too. I guess i just have to be positive all the time and make an effort in everything I do.
hey baby...the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side.....u were literally dying to go to australia and now ur complaining.......things always does not work out the way we thought it would be. i had a hard time adjusting to my new life...i can tell u that in a few months time....things will look up.....just give it some time. Just do not think so much about it.....focus on ur studies..ur there for a purpose. complete that purpose and move on with your life. muakz..
Think of all the beer there!
Hang in there, fren.
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