.:Sing me a new tune.:.
Boredom is like trying to figure out algebra.Getting around it, is never an easy task. Once you get around it, it may or may not return.Bored to my wits, I seriously can't find leisure in surfing the Internet for hours.Unlike others.Here I am in edge of two worlds. Being an unemployed and being an employed. A distant line draws between them. Pondering thoughts of what will it be in the real world, lingers on my head on a daily basis.As far as I am concern, I am pretty stuck.In a sense that I can't even comprehend.Now, life back home has not been lived to what I have expected it to be or is it me that is having my expectations.Reminiscing the time in Melbourne constantly is not helping the state I am in.Torn apart by 2 different worlds.It hard not to think about it.
Saying that life here sucks is really an understatement.Perhaps have I made a mistake returning home.Now, adapting the life back here its not as easy as I thought it would.I kind of forgotten an essential part life that had changed. My circle of friends are now all out there building their careers.This where I confused myself with.Is it that they are busy ? Maybe the distance that separated us has drawn our friendship further.Boggles me at times what actually happened. I can never bring back the good old days. However, I am sure that there is a reason for it.Making new friends aren't that hard after all.Its a different ball game now I suppose that I am attached.
Long distance relationship.I got to say that, its a curse.Perhaps one that have been with me for a while.As a matter of fact it is happening now. Then comes the famous "But why?" question.I can't comprehend why do I have to go through it when I thought that it will never happened ever again.Its a challenge and a struggle for two hearts that are join in a distance.Its a never ending quest to save oneself from the torturing distance and agonizing pain.The simple thing we used to share were the best.An example of that is going to get weekly groceries. It was not a routine but a moment that we shared. Will this end up well depends on what God has in planned.
I just can't used badminton as an escape like I used to in Melbourne.In reality, some tricks does not work twice.As emotional as I may sound, I am not at the edge of it.Merely trying to understand my situation now. I was particularly neutral about this. Recent events and thoughts turned the table.Its not an inaudible melody. I guess slowly things will recover.So sing me a new tune.
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